Well, the disappearing man finally surfaced and with him probably the biggest kick in the teeth I've had for a while.
Apparently he 'likes me' but is 'concerned about my domestic situation'. So, as if the situation isn't hard enough to deal with and one I desperately want to escape but can't yet, now it seems that it also affects my ability to be in a relationship!
F*ck! Can anything else go wrong I wonder? Enough already!
I can't decide whether I am gutted that might be the case with other guys or whether he just didn't like me as much as he says and it's an excuse.
Do men really think that way? Am I being completely naive in thinking that my current imperfect life isn't going to put the right guy off?
Whatever, I'm not happy and I feel like I am being penalised again for at least trying to do the right thing. Maybe I should learn, against my better judgement, to be a little more economical with the truth in future!
Meh! :(
Saturday, 17 April 2010
Friday, 16 April 2010
TFIF & LOLz!
One way and another this last week has been pretty much one I would rather forget so in an effort not to moan and groan here, one or two bits of nonesense instead which raised a smile among the rest of the codswallop! :)
and lastly, this about sums up my current state of mind and vague look!
and lastly, this about sums up my current state of mind and vague look!
Thursday, 15 April 2010
More dating doom!
How hard can it be? I mean really, just how hard can it be to meet a man who is and does 'what it says on the packet'? One would think it shouldn't be too difficult, one might be very wrong.
It would seem, or at least thus far in my experience, that it's nigh on bloody impossible!
I expect to meet my fair share of frogs and I don't expect to meet a prince but somewhere about in the middle of those two extremes might be nice. No, actually, what might be nice would be for someone, just -- one -- man, one time, to be/do/say what he promises, even half way there would be a nice novelty!! Please?
Jeez, is honesty up there with rocket science these days or is it me? Is expecting some degree of normal integrity just too much to ask of someone? Apparently it is, oh how utterly naive of me.
The latest in the sorry line of dates appeared to be a bit different (Yeah, I know,where have you heard that one before?!). We had much in common, an amazing amount in fact, we talked easily for hours, we laughed and we appeared to want the same things. It was he that pushed to meet soon, we met, we enjoyed one anothers company, the real life thing seemed to be as good as we had hoped, or better and when we parted at the end of the date we both felt kind of disappointed it had to end. As soon as he got home he contacted me, very complimentary, very keen to meet again, it was all good.
'WAS' is the operative word here because 'Mr I won't mess you around or play games, I am honest, genuine and reliable' appears now to have done a vanishing act! Well to be more precise this is the second vanishing act. The first time he turned up again full of apology and reason, this time nothing and I will be damned if I'm going to contact him, much as I might like too and much as I am having to sit on my hands to prevent myself from calling or texting him. Dammit!
Maybe there is a valid reason, maybe I will eat my words but you will forgive my scepticism when I say I suspect it's probably all bullshit again!
My cage has been well and truly rattled this time! I await his call, I imagine I will be waiting quite some time!
For a long long time I have said I would never be one of the 'all men are bastards' brigade and deep down I do know there are some good guys out there but there but they seem to be very thin on the ground and each time this happens it's getting harder to keep the faith!
*And yes Mr B, I know what you will say and maybe I am beginning to think you are right!
It would seem, or at least thus far in my experience, that it's nigh on bloody impossible!
I expect to meet my fair share of frogs and I don't expect to meet a prince but somewhere about in the middle of those two extremes might be nice. No, actually, what might be nice would be for someone, just -- one -- man, one time, to be/do/say what he promises, even half way there would be a nice novelty!! Please?
Jeez, is honesty up there with rocket science these days or is it me? Is expecting some degree of normal integrity just too much to ask of someone? Apparently it is, oh how utterly naive of me.
The latest in the sorry line of dates appeared to be a bit different (Yeah, I know,where have you heard that one before?!). We had much in common, an amazing amount in fact, we talked easily for hours, we laughed and we appeared to want the same things. It was he that pushed to meet soon, we met, we enjoyed one anothers company, the real life thing seemed to be as good as we had hoped, or better and when we parted at the end of the date we both felt kind of disappointed it had to end. As soon as he got home he contacted me, very complimentary, very keen to meet again, it was all good.
'WAS' is the operative word here because 'Mr I won't mess you around or play games, I am honest, genuine and reliable' appears now to have done a vanishing act! Well to be more precise this is the second vanishing act. The first time he turned up again full of apology and reason, this time nothing and I will be damned if I'm going to contact him, much as I might like too and much as I am having to sit on my hands to prevent myself from calling or texting him. Dammit!
Maybe there is a valid reason, maybe I will eat my words but you will forgive my scepticism when I say I suspect it's probably all bullshit again!
My cage has been well and truly rattled this time! I await his call, I imagine I will be waiting quite some time!
For a long long time I have said I would never be one of the 'all men are bastards' brigade and deep down I do know there are some good guys out there but there but they seem to be very thin on the ground and each time this happens it's getting harder to keep the faith!
*And yes Mr B, I know what you will say and maybe I am beginning to think you are right!
Wednesday, 14 April 2010
Thankyou....
....to everyone of you for all the birthday wishes yesterday, here in comments, on facebook and on Twitter. You lot made my day! :)
It was always going to be an odd day for one reason and another, my home situation is somewhat strange and difficult, it's was my first 'occasion' since my fathers death and the ongoing dating saga wasn't causing me much in the way of joy but regardless, I had a good day and a very nice evening with a friend.
It wasn't anything like the party madness one might expect but I think I'm getting a bit beyond all that, it was however a day full of cake, chocolate and the reminder that I have some very good friends out there.
Again, I thank you guys. It may have been a strange day but ultimately I enjoyed it and the gift of friendship is the very best kind of gift!
It was always going to be an odd day for one reason and another, my home situation is somewhat strange and difficult, it's was my first 'occasion' since my fathers death and the ongoing dating saga wasn't causing me much in the way of joy but regardless, I had a good day and a very nice evening with a friend.
It wasn't anything like the party madness one might expect but I think I'm getting a bit beyond all that, it was however a day full of cake, chocolate and the reminder that I have some very good friends out there.
Again, I thank you guys. It may have been a strange day but ultimately I enjoyed it and the gift of friendship is the very best kind of gift!
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
It's my birthday....
....and it's not started well!
'The date' who showed such promise appears to have possibly done a u-turn and I've woken up feeling poorly. Meh!
Perhaps things will improve as the day goes on. I do at least have the offer of an evening out at a friends later :)
'The date' who showed such promise appears to have possibly done a u-turn and I've woken up feeling poorly. Meh!
Perhaps things will improve as the day goes on. I do at least have the offer of an evening out at a friends later :)
Monday, 12 April 2010
Date debrief!
So, the bike ride, it didn't happen, however this is not a bad thing in that it didn't happen because we were so busy talking we just never got to it!! :)
We talked easily, we laughed a lot, I like him, he likes me, we want the same things in life, we like the same things, we have the same passions, it's looking good....
Like I said yesterday though, we shall see, no counting of little yellow fluffy chicks!
We talked easily, we laughed a lot, I like him, he likes me, we want the same things in life, we like the same things, we have the same passions, it's looking good....
Like I said yesterday though, we shall see, no counting of little yellow fluffy chicks!
Sunday, 11 April 2010
It's been a while....
....since I last got into my leathers and sat on a bike, about two years to be more specific, which is way too long, but today I have a date with a very nice man and a very big bike!
This one shows much more promise than some of my previous 'encounters' but given my recent experiences with men let's just say I'm not holding my breath, things could 'go to pot' just as quickly as they seem to have developed but I can't help but be a little excited this time, try as I might not to be.
Whatever, a day out back in the saddle is going to be fun, I've missed it, I can't wait and the fact that the man is passionate about good coffee and good chocolate too is something of a bonus and a half decent start! :)
We will see....
This one shows much more promise than some of my previous 'encounters' but given my recent experiences with men let's just say I'm not holding my breath, things could 'go to pot' just as quickly as they seem to have developed but I can't help but be a little excited this time, try as I might not to be.
Whatever, a day out back in the saddle is going to be fun, I've missed it, I can't wait and the fact that the man is passionate about good coffee and good chocolate too is something of a bonus and a half decent start! :)
We will see....
Saturday, 10 April 2010
Un-birthday!
Today is my 'un-birthday'!
On my actual birthday in a few days time there will be only myself here so today my sister and nieces are here and we are having a little family lunch, there will be chocolate and there will be cake!
It feels very odd this year, it's my first 'occasion' since my dad died and life with my mother has been pretty 'challenging' since so this little gathering will be different to those that have gone before. It will be good to be together and to do something nice for a change, family soirees of late have not been happy fun filled occasions needless to say, but this one will be! ;)
Bring on the cake then.....
On my actual birthday in a few days time there will be only myself here so today my sister and nieces are here and we are having a little family lunch, there will be chocolate and there will be cake!
It feels very odd this year, it's my first 'occasion' since my dad died and life with my mother has been pretty 'challenging' since so this little gathering will be different to those that have gone before. It will be good to be together and to do something nice for a change, family soirees of late have not been happy fun filled occasions needless to say, but this one will be! ;)
Bring on the cake then.....
Friday, 9 April 2010
Wednesday, 7 April 2010
Homeward bound
Today I go back home, my holiday is over, this is not a good thing as you can imagine!
My motivation to get packed up and hit the road is what one might call virtually non existent, life has felt pretty 'normal' and happy the last fortnight and I suspect that is about to change.
On a more positive note I have found a few jobs to apply for and managed to get myself through one interview, one may not be many but in comparison to opportunities of late, it's a 100% improvement!
Ok, I have the hump today, best I shut up and just concentrate on getting my head back around reality....
My motivation to get packed up and hit the road is what one might call virtually non existent, life has felt pretty 'normal' and happy the last fortnight and I suspect that is about to change.
On a more positive note I have found a few jobs to apply for and managed to get myself through one interview, one may not be many but in comparison to opportunities of late, it's a 100% improvement!
Ok, I have the hump today, best I shut up and just concentrate on getting my head back around reality....
Monday, 5 April 2010
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