First things first

It goes without saying that the last ten days of my life haven't been the easiest I have lived through, the emotional impact of my decision to leave Scotland doesn't need elaboration, we have all been there to one degree or another and it's never fun but it is something we learn to deal with over time.

The practical aspects of my move are however more pressing, the emotional stuff will carry on loitering in the background for a time but my lack of a job, the fact that I have about £20 to my name, a scary level of debt to deal with and no home to call my own require that I 'pull my finger out', and quite rapidly.

Money is an odd thing. Had someone asked me prior to now if would I mind others funding my life I would have joked and said 'hell.. no, feel free', the reality is very different...I hate it, I hate that I am completely dependent on others to pay for absolutely anything I need, I hate that I can't make my own decisions and I hate that I have found myself in that situation at all. All that said I am of course very lucky that I have people prepared to help me right now, where I would be without them doesn't bear thinking about and I will be eternally grateful for their practical and emotional support.....but it doesn't stop me hating it!

And so that's what this week is about....finding myself some suitable employment, or even unsuitable for that matter, anything is better than nothing from where I'm standing! On the up side now I'm back in the 'big city' there is a far greater chance that I will be able to persuade someone that I am employable, at least in the short term, Scotland may have been beautiful, it may have been many positive things but it sure as hell wasn't the place to be if you need to find work fast!