Moving - Well that's the theory...

...but in practice it seems to be a whole other matter!

Ergh (yes, that's a technical term), I have to move within the next few weeks now and despite having spent better part of the last few months scouring the internet/estate agents/newspapers yada yada, I still can't find anywhere I can even consider affording.

It's utterly ridiculous, rents here are so high it's beyond me how anyone affords them, 50% of what I see runs into £1000's pcm quite literally and even the smallest studio flat is out of my price range. I knew that of course but I kept telling myself all the things others tell me "something will turn up", "you will work something out", etc. etc. Well nothing has turned up and I haven't worked anything out.....and believe me, I have tried...and some!

I have always been a firm believer in the 'where there's a will there's a way' principle but this time it just ain't happening.

And so I have capitulated and finally lowered my sights to renting just a room, I hate the thought of it. I know I might meet nice people, make new friends, see a little more of life but none of that compensates for the fact that at 50 I want/need some privacy. I have lived devoid of privacy for two years now, I am desperate to live a 'normal' life again, have my own space but it would appear wanting and having are not the same thing. Even one room is going to cost me in excess of £500 pcm and those are hard to find for various reasons, my age being the biggest.

Most flat/house shares are younger people (who haven't yet had a chance to screw their life as I have) and they (understandably) don't want to share with someone who is probably older than their parents. People my age it seems are usually more sorted (no shit) that I am and don't share houses.

Hey ho....it looks like I'm going to have to just suck it up and look happy, I have no other option unless lady luck suddenly springs a surprise...but let's face it, that's not gonna happen either.

None of this does anything for ones self esteem I might add.

Jeez....I owned my own flat at 19 yrs old and this is just absolutely nothing like where I anticipated my life would be at this stage......

Bum!