Just a glimpse

A short time ago I found myself in a situation with a small group of people feeling something I hadn't anticipated, a feeling that came from out of the blue, totally unexpected but which suddenly made the often times crap that is my current life, seem more bearable.

This moment was in itself nothing of earth shattering proportions, I didn't win the lottery, Richard Gere didn't suddenly present himself at my door and no one bestowed upon me unexpectedly any usually recognised great honor. No, it was a simple thing but an honor still, the company of a few people, most of whom in reality I barely know but in who's company I found myself completely comfortable and happy.

Whilst there was chatter and laughter all around me I was aware of feeling momentarily detached, of looking in from the outside and knowing this was for me a rare experience, I felt peaceful and relaxed, I was laughing, I felt comfortable and happy and I felt for a short time part of something that has evaded me for much of my life. I was starkly aware of how rarely I have felt as I did at that moment, a feeling of contentment that above almost all other things I would wish to always be part of my life.

It may only have been a glimpse, I may never glimpse it again but that feeling, however brief, will stay with me. A memory of something very special.......