Today....

....I should be in work, I'm not, I'm ill...ugh! I had to call in sick, I hate doing that, I feel guilty. On one hand as an employee one feels mostly wholly dispensable, at times like this, why then is one made to feel completely indispensable?!

I once overheard a colleague threaten to leave, she was told by a member of management that anyone of us would be missed for about 5 minutes, none of us are indispensable.........it doesn't stop me feeling guilty now!

Calling in sick has to be one of life's most unpleasant and scary experiences, today was no different. We have to speak to a manager not a 'minion'. The manager I got when I made the dreaded call today was someone who I hoped would at least have little understanding, no chance, apparently unsympathetic, short with me and disinterested in anything other than the fact that the store will be 'one down' today. I know that! Bloody hell, that's why I feel guilty in the first place, it's going to be a busy day for them, I should be there but I don't choose when to feel like crap.

I don't know if I'm more angry at being made to feel like a naughty child or upset that, despite talking the talk, even those one believes genuinely care about their staff patently don't appear too when push comes to shove.

Call me naive....... as a company we have undergone massive changes of late, we have been told time and time again we are a 'family', we care for one another and support one another. I do my share of hard work when others are ill. Silly me..... I almost believed they actually cared a little.

Something uttered along the lines of 'I hope you feel better soon' would have gone a long way. :o(

I'm going back to bed!