So what's got my goat? Well right now it feels like just about everything, though of course it's not but it's been a day of others ill tempers aimed in my direction or in the direction of those I love, I have been soaked in the rain, not once but twice running errands, I have had my day planned and un-planned for me without reference to myself, I have spent half the afternoon having a text row with a guy who has some serious issues understanding the term "no, sorry I don't want to see you tonight"
I also have an extremely sore middle finger on my left hand as the result of a very bloody run in with an open tin can last night, (fab, I'm left handed) I'm constantly tired and I am fed up to the back teeth of having to think and remember a thousand and one things all the time and of feeling like I have the weight of the world firmly strapped on my little back!
Oh...and the one thing I had hoped might save the day, didn't happen. Wouldn't you know it!
I miss being me, I miss having a life, I miss having fun and save for the odd exception I feel like I can't remember what fun even feels like, or carefree.....or happy .....or relaxed.....or normal!
I know we all go through crappy periods in our lives, we all have bad days, many much worse than mine, and I know my situation is no-one's fault. Far from it. And yes, I know I'll feel better in the morning and yes, mostly I'm happy and more than willing to be doing what I have to do right now... but just today, just right here and right now I need to have five minutes of 'selfish and disgruntled and snivelling', before I gather my thoughts and get back on track.
*Rant over, I apologise once more.
3 Comments:
OK, first, open tin can, cut: get a tetanus shot/booster. Non-negotiable. No, really.
Second. Owwwwwwwwwwwww, sorry to hear you're not having a great time. If you're ever in the west London area I can promise you a great local curry, usually makes you feel better whilst not solving any problems, per se.
Third, sounds like you're doing the daughter thing. That's part of you. And the ME bit, that's part of you too. And the "why can't life be simple", is you too. All things to all people. You do fine. From what I read (but don't comment) better than most.
In fact, you're one of my top ten heroes with the things you do for TP. (should that be heroines?) You are pretty great aren't you? Ask Teh Parents......... :)
Hope you can smile a bit.
JH
What the heck are you apologising for? You get it out. Twatty, crappy, snotty, cacky days come and go and it's good to shout about them! Let it out! I have more to say but I've used my quoto of swear words. Hugs hun. Text you later... xx
You so do not have to apologise!
It's good to get it out in the open how you feel, I know it makes no real difference when you are having a bad time but it might help relieve the pressure you feel inside just a teeny bit!
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